Re: Gaw is our site dead!?
Posted: Thu Jul 18, 2019 10:15 am
Oh! I am saddened that an innocent question seems to have raised division which I do not believe to be there. I believe it is a matter of degrees... some of us on the lite side and increasing overlap occurs as we move further along the axis until some really have no other choice but to transition if they are to live and find happiness in their lives.
I do believe we are inextricably bound together by whatever it is inside of who we are that colors our identity and mentality feminine. That is the "Who I am sense" there really is nothing more to it than just that...it is not a fantasy, or some perverted choice we make it is something we cannot shake that is there and has been there our entire life. Growing up I was torn apart mentally by this inner struggle we are taught and conditioned and are forced to be one way while this inner sense tells us we are otherwise and draws us in another direction. It is a horrible thing that we are in many ways being pressured intensley to be who others want and insist that we have to be and that if they force us to be that way eventually we will settle down and find we are happy. Stupid people!!! How many have they been responsible for pushing into suicide? No one can change who you are inside and this is who we are as people!
I draw no distinction in my mind between those who are led to dress and find sexual pleasure from it...and as the degree increases as we find we are located somewhere along this axis all the way on to those who have to transition in order to find happiness so that they can go on to live their lives in peace. Realize it or not where ever we are inside our head we are all the same because there exists this feminine sense coloring our thinking. As a child I had absolutely no understanding about any of this only that I liked putting on women's clothes and pleasuring myself...as time went on my understanding grew and I came to realize my sense of who I am is female and there is nothing I can do to change that. My place along this axis is short of feeling an intense need to transition in order to save my life but who knows... I find differences and similarities between who I am and who men and women are. I know I love women and am attracted to them but I also cannot help being as they are and desiring similar things.
I do believe we are all involved in some way in the push to change how people think so that we are just seen to be people no different than anyone else. I do agree those who have transitioned, and who are living openly needing to pursue careers, live where they desire and have all the same basic human rights because we are human after all, are highly motivated to lead this fight for our rights because they are confronted everyday of their life by issues of bigotry and by those who would seek to deny our rights for whatever reason, so I see these women as my Heros.
I have never really been treated in any other way by our transitioned sisters than with understanding and consideration and acceptance.... We are together not apart we are connected to each other.
I do know with the help of many professionals and my current Psychiatrist I am beginning to see how my inner struggle has had a huge role in how I feel about who I am and feel about myself and how it has effected feelings to those all around me who either do not know or who would reject who I am if they knew. It is monumental! I have from a fairly recent point embarked on moving forward with the rest of my life as I evolve realizing I am female this is who I am and living openly as I find confidence and comfort in being more open to those around me. I know in being who I really am I will encounter the same mindset that has always existed and that is also sad but I will not find peace and happiness until I am able to live and to be who I am inside before everyone.
Ok, well, I have used this site more as a place to post because I am lonely after losing so many people who were in my life and I have found support and human contact here. We all need acceptance and human contact...I also have other places, I have real life friends who know, but many who I know I cannot tell but I need all the people around me that I can find. I am lost and disoriented having lost my wife but I am struggling to live and to find purpose again as I also seek to be open about who I am. I can say I have more peace inside and I am happier than I used to be because I am beginning to be who I am and I will be who I am the rest of my life.
I do believe we are inextricably bound together by whatever it is inside of who we are that colors our identity and mentality feminine. That is the "Who I am sense" there really is nothing more to it than just that...it is not a fantasy, or some perverted choice we make it is something we cannot shake that is there and has been there our entire life. Growing up I was torn apart mentally by this inner struggle we are taught and conditioned and are forced to be one way while this inner sense tells us we are otherwise and draws us in another direction. It is a horrible thing that we are in many ways being pressured intensley to be who others want and insist that we have to be and that if they force us to be that way eventually we will settle down and find we are happy. Stupid people!!! How many have they been responsible for pushing into suicide? No one can change who you are inside and this is who we are as people!
I draw no distinction in my mind between those who are led to dress and find sexual pleasure from it...and as the degree increases as we find we are located somewhere along this axis all the way on to those who have to transition in order to find happiness so that they can go on to live their lives in peace. Realize it or not where ever we are inside our head we are all the same because there exists this feminine sense coloring our thinking. As a child I had absolutely no understanding about any of this only that I liked putting on women's clothes and pleasuring myself...as time went on my understanding grew and I came to realize my sense of who I am is female and there is nothing I can do to change that. My place along this axis is short of feeling an intense need to transition in order to save my life but who knows... I find differences and similarities between who I am and who men and women are. I know I love women and am attracted to them but I also cannot help being as they are and desiring similar things.
I do believe we are all involved in some way in the push to change how people think so that we are just seen to be people no different than anyone else. I do agree those who have transitioned, and who are living openly needing to pursue careers, live where they desire and have all the same basic human rights because we are human after all, are highly motivated to lead this fight for our rights because they are confronted everyday of their life by issues of bigotry and by those who would seek to deny our rights for whatever reason, so I see these women as my Heros.
I have never really been treated in any other way by our transitioned sisters than with understanding and consideration and acceptance.... We are together not apart we are connected to each other.
I do know with the help of many professionals and my current Psychiatrist I am beginning to see how my inner struggle has had a huge role in how I feel about who I am and feel about myself and how it has effected feelings to those all around me who either do not know or who would reject who I am if they knew. It is monumental! I have from a fairly recent point embarked on moving forward with the rest of my life as I evolve realizing I am female this is who I am and living openly as I find confidence and comfort in being more open to those around me. I know in being who I really am I will encounter the same mindset that has always existed and that is also sad but I will not find peace and happiness until I am able to live and to be who I am inside before everyone.
Ok, well, I have used this site more as a place to post because I am lonely after losing so many people who were in my life and I have found support and human contact here. We all need acceptance and human contact...I also have other places, I have real life friends who know, but many who I know I cannot tell but I need all the people around me that I can find. I am lost and disoriented having lost my wife but I am struggling to live and to find purpose again as I also seek to be open about who I am. I can say I have more peace inside and I am happier than I used to be because I am beginning to be who I am and I will be who I am the rest of my life.