This is my first post as a crossdresser but i have had an interest in female underwear and clothes all my life in some form or other.
I'm 53 now and married, up until recently i had been able to shall we say manage to control my need to crossdress and for the last 26 years of our marriage not even think about wanting to wear womens clothes.
But in the last year or so for some reason the urge has become constant and i had to give in to my needs.
And have been wearing mainly underwear as i like the feel of the soft material against my skin and if I'm totally honest thats the reason i crossdress.
I can only find the opportunity to crossdress once a week.
But i had decided that the secret of keeping this from my wife was becoming too much to cope with and i been trying pluck up the courage to come out to her.
I was listening to a conversation bewteen two work colleagues that for some reason got onto crossdressers one guy said he didn't understand why men wore womens clothes but some of the places he has been too (night clubs) "they would probably get a good kicking!!" And the other guy said they must be sick!
I just listened and said nothing as to say anything or try to defend crossdressers would of maybe put me on the spot.
But i sat there a few minutes later at my desk with tears in my eyes thinking that i had never felt so alone
I couldn't stand it anymore and so on friday evening i told my wife i was a crossdresser! I told her the story at work and told her i was born with this and that my earliest memories were of wanting to wear panties and tights (pantyhose) although i didn't understand or know what it meant.
My wife has been in shock most of the weekend but I've told her that i will respect her if she doesn't want anything to do with it and i just hoped that she would understand and support me. She has calmed down now but nothing more has been said about the subject, i won't push the issue any further and let her deal with it in her own way, i hope that she still loves me and wants to be with me and i hope she can get used to me being me even if she doesn't want to see me in my female clothes.
It's good to be finaly talk to poeple who understand and to know I'm not alone
Lots of love
Catriona xx
