About labels...

[Anne Bonny]

It took a while to accept who I am (at age 40), then to throw the mythology of sin and religion in the garbage where it belongs as sin is a religious concept trying to explain human nature which just is and the vast majority do not need any of that to already want to be nice, moral people it is in their best interest to be so as a secular person, then it took more time...years... to make sense of it all (I am about to turn 60) required some sorting and definition to do that...Now I am able to drop the labels and move past all of that. But if I have to explain it I can pull all of these terms out. It is just now...to just live...to be...to just go with the flow of my inconsistent ever changing gender. I am quite masculine...until I am quite feminine for indefinite periods of time...change is the only constant in regards to my gender, my sex and sexuality though are as fixed as my personality has always been...I am who I am....it is just this sense of gender this "who I am sense."

I am always going to enjoy the option just as women enjoy, what they now would deny as being, anymore, what at one time it was because women did not wear men's clothing...pants or shorts. And I am cross gendered or whatever anyone wants to label me...I have  a feminine sense of myself that comes...just do, can't help it, I just do. Perhaps in light of that what I am wearing is therefore not cross dressing at all but simply gender appropriate. Especially when clothing is considered to be gender specific...and my gender flows back and forth. As we know sex, gender, and sexuality are all separate things. So you can be male, feminine, heterosexual (attracted to women in my case)...No matter my mood or how I feel...even firmly on my masculine side...I will still affirm that I am gender fluid because that is what I am have always been. Gender nonconformity...well...it is more than that it's gender. 

Gee...think of the slot machine combinations on all of that: SEX: male/female/intersexed ; GENDER: Masculine/Feminine/gender fluid/androgynous/asexual/(and 50 or so others really!?); SEXUALITY: Heterosexual/Homosexual/Bi-Sexual/others? Pull the lever on that one...yeah ding ding ding....

You should call me G*** Anne....and refer to me as hesh, hish, hizh. HAH! yeah if you can remember that!? I do not buy into any of that it would be like having to pull out a piece of paper before you start talking to or about someone and then checking it twice! Give me a break! Just refer to me with feminine pronouns and call me by me feminine name If I happen to be on my feminine side which should be obvious, I mean there are clues...my pumps matching my dress for example...or male pronouns if the opposite is obvious. 


Yeah...to the point....and that is to begin to move beyond all of this...Hum...I would like to wear whatever today...or for now...then going with it until something else comes up...up! have to go mow the yard!!! grrr...Time to run...Oh I want to just relax...into the male.... And the more we open up our door...the more we widen our circle of friends, family and neighbors...the more we can FINALLY! just live and be! Hey, don't you like my pretty ring!? Hum...I know...It's very pretty isn't it? Hey...let's go walk on the beach then go get something to eat at the Sea n' Suds... (sigh drive through and take out in this day is still probably more realistic let's go back to the condo...) Put on a little beach music...where's the spf15?