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Background: A baby boomer growing up in a Sicilian neighborhood in Chicago. Today, I literally live on an authentic Caribbean Island. I am married to a strong woman who doesn’t seem to have a clue about the CD in me. She looks to me for strength. She does know that I have no hesitancy to be “creative.” All my life, I have been strongly attracted to strong women who are like my wife.

I feel “gay” but in the Jane Austen sense of the term. Gay once connoted something that is more than feeling of simple joy or frivolity. For me the word encompasses the whole body and mind. Feeling gay in this sense helps me create a closer relationship with a creator. I call myself a deist, as Thomas Payne was.

If depression, angst or pressure come into my life, I become Robbin. Robbin takes a deep breath and feels her breasts inside her. She raises her head proudly and takes another deep breath, feeling her whole body create energy and strength. And she takes control.

Being open to the CD experience started about a year ago, when I bought a pair of tight state of the art running shoes. The salesman talked me into a pair of “girly” socks that runners use. Then it was easy to start to walk a certain way, taking deep breaths and look at how I move through my shadow.

More and more, I started to understand I could be a woman. The man in me used to think that he wanted to be in every reasonably attractive woman that he saw. Now, Robbin tells that the term “inside” can mean means being that person, not having sex with her.

As the manly man out and about, I have internal signals for my woman brain. One is a special silver bracelet, aquamarine stones with a strong silver holding device. Men wear jewelry, so I can, too. My bracelet was something that I was going to only wear in drag but it evolved. I wear it all the time.

Men can carry a "glass case." I can carry one too but, to my mind, it is really my clutch purse. Men can walk deliberately to effect strength in viewers' eyes. I can do that too, carefully placing one foot in front of the other, breathing deeply, feeling my breasts and body under the clothing, doing my runway model look. Work it, Robbin. You are so feminine-ly masculine.

Am I living a life of deception? Yes. But how much of my whole life has been a deception? Give me a role and I will create the person. In theater, it is called “character development.” Is that what my CD life is about? A temporary fling with a new character? Hope not.

Welcome to the forum, Robbin. That's an interesting intro. I also found out that some of my attraction to women was a longing to be a woman. I only discovered this after the fact.

There's lots of good reading here. Take a browse through the archives, when you get a chance.

Welcome Robbin

Welcome, Robbin.

Robbin_Sinclair wrote:If depression, angst or pressure come into my life, I become Robbin. Robbin takes a deep breath and feels her breasts inside her. She raises her head proudly and takes another deep breath, feeling her whole body create energy and strength. And she takes control.

....it was easy to start to walk a certain way, taking deep breaths and look at how I move through my shadow.

...Give me a role and I will create the person. In theater, it is called “character development.” Is that what my CD life is about? A temporary fling with a new character? Hope not.

Reminds me a bit of:

All the world's a stage.
And all the men and women merely players:
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts,

Not what Shakespeare had in mind, but still...

Anthony, you assume.................

Robbin

Hi Robbin

Hi, Robbin, and welcome to the forum!


- SL

Welcome Robbin
Welcome to the forum and may you become a very active contributor. The success of the forum is it's membership and the care that is take by each member in their post. Please be an active member.

All the world's a stage.
And all the men and women merely players:
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts,

Not what Shakespeare had in mind, but still...[/quote]

Is that what this is all about? Are we all players? Am I doing nothing more than doing character development for a new role? We shall see.

Loved your reply. And those of everyone else. Wish I could figure out how to edit the "Robbing" to Robbin in my subject. Such a colorful site. It's fun to be here. xxr

Wish I could figure out how to edit the "Robbing" to Robbin in my subject.

Send a PM to Kimberly Kael, DonnaT, or SilverLady(SO) with the request to make the change. They will be able to help you.

Hi Robbin, to the forum.

I edited the title for you.

Not what Shakespeare had in mind, but still...[/quote]

Ah, therein lies the rub. Who knows what Shakespeare had in mind? Actors that shared the stage during the time of the Bard routinely thought in terms of cross dressing, Theater, by definition, is a deviation from ordinary life.

Robbin_Sinclair wrote:

Not what Shakespeare had in mind, but still...

Ah, therein lies the rub. Who knows what Shakespeare had in mind? Actors that shared the stage during the time of the Bard routinely thought in terms of cross dressing, Theater, by definition, is a deviation from ordinary life.

Actually, even in the drama that comes from - As You Like It - the main character, Rosalind, CDs. And the female characters on Shakespeare's stage were played by boy actors...For what it's worth, I actually played Titania in a school play.

But the reason I made said it was that the quote continues about the 7 ages of man - nothing to do with CDing there.

Robbin, despite all of the above, welcome to the club...

Anna x