I'm here too!

Tracy_Victoria · Post by **Tracy_Victoria** » Tue Apr 11, 2006 5:52 am

Firstly I just wanted to say thank you for allowing me to join, and also for being so kind to the person who means so much to me, My partner and my solemate, Fran W.

To give you a run down on myself I'm now 45, and have been crossdressing since I was a small child, and as Fran is fully aware I've been doing it for most of my adult life as well. Unlike some I have never really had that guilty stage, I've always accepted I actually enjoy dressing up as a female, yet I have no desire to dress full time, nor do I have any wish to be a woman, to me my crossdressing is just that, dressing and acting female for small chucks of my life. Other than that my male life is just as (Maybe even more) important to me, ie my partner, my work, my boys, and other things that make up my male side of my life are just as important to me. Crossdressing is just a small part, of what actually makes me, Me!!!

I started dressing probably like most, in my mothers clothes, I was a child of the 60's and 70's so at that point in time, wigs where every were, but maybe also there was a kind of freedom to do more, our parents had had the chains of war and rationing put upon them, people of my generation didn't. I honestly can't say I started dressing at X because I really can't remember but I'm sure I started very young, about 8, and by the time I was 13/14 I was dressing fully as a female.

I may post my Bio in time, thats down to Fran, basically she is driving the bus at present here, however I'm aware of how difficult this is for her yet I'm so grateful for her efforts to understand and move on with me on this. (thanks love!) I've alway been honest with her about my dressing, I even told her about it, before getting serious with her, I didn't want to have to hide myself away, that doesn't mean I want to be Tracy full time, what it means is the ability to be honest, and talk like we are now able to
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Sadly not long after Fran and I got together, we went along to a Beaumont meeting here in the UK, She then talked to one of the members of WOBS via the telephone (women of), she really caused Fran and I a lot of problems. She gave Fran an incorrect (or her) version of what living with a Crossdresser was about, it damaged Fran deeply but more to the point not only did it throw a massive spanner in the works between us,but more than anything it else, it stoped Fran dead in her tracks, denying us the change to find our own path on this, together. That damage has taken 10 years to repair. however I am so glad, and hopes she can now see that all of us are different (and I am, and we will be, very, very different from D+J)

SO now I find myself at a point I should have been at ten years earlier, (yet all the same I'm very greatful to be here now!) which is on a path of discovery (again!) with Fran, to see where our relationship really can take us together.

Actually I don't need her to see me dressed, thats not what this is really all about, what I hope is I can share all of my life with her as i have always wanted to, not just selectled chunks of it. I am a crossdresser, and I'm of proud of what I am, and do through my dressing, I think I'm probably a bit more sensitive, and a bit more understanding than some males, and if I am really honest I am Tracy (or what ever name I use at the time), and Tracy is me, But I also understand that there is a need for Tracy to live in a box for most of her life, and thats fine by me. Just so long as I can open the box when I need to, and not lock myself back in that box, for that time, which was happening, not only was that box Tracy's prison, it also became mine!

Thanks for reading

Tracy

Amelie-Laveau · Post by **Amelie-Laveau** » Tue Apr 11, 2006 6:00 am

Hi Tracy and welcome to the forum.

While it is good to here others experiences with CDing, the important part is that you and your wife have an understanding between each other. Don't let others ruin your marriage with waht they say CDing is all about. You and your wife thoughts are all that counts.

Becky · Post by **Becky** » Tue Apr 11, 2006 6:45 am

Hi Tracy and welcome. The relationship you have with a caring understanding spouse is wonderful and should be the most important thing- so happy you were able to work things out.

Post by **DonnaT** » Tue Apr 11, 2006 7:26 am

Hi Tracy,

to the forum.

Some of what you have mentioned I find similar to my experiences and desires. Never felt guilty about being a CD, desire to dress full time, nor wish to be a woman.

My wife went from accepting when we were first married (told her soon after and wish I had told her prior to), to completely unaccepting, to trying to cope with it since she knows this is something I was born with and won't go away.

Glad Fran found us and invited you to join too.

SilverLady(SO) · Post by **SilverLady(SO)** » Tue Apr 11, 2006 11:38 am

Hi, Tracy - welcome to the Forum!! We're so glad that you decided to join Fran here - you'll find we're a very friendly and supportive group.

- SL

Virginia · Post by **Virginia** » Tue Apr 11, 2006 12:30 pm

Welcome Tracy,
We are looking forward to both of you sharing with us!!
Virginia

Tracy_Victoria · Post by **Tracy_Victoria** » Thu Apr 13, 2006 4:14 am

Hi All thank you so much for your warm and welcoming replies. you have made both Fran (Fran W) and I so very Welcome!

Really this is just a very quick update for you all, just to let you all know we haven't just signed on and then given up, ie there is more to come from us yet!

Basically We have had a little hiccup over the last few days, Our son (the middle one had to be taken in to hospital on Tuesday moning with stomach pains, and on tuesday night he had a emergency apendixtomy.

All is fine and he is recovering well, but of course this means both of us have been running about like headless chickens for the last two days, in fact as I write this, Fran's on hospital watch and sitting with him.

Were hoping all should hopefully return to normal by the weekend, and we will start to post more when we are able, but having recieved such warm welcome's I didn't want you to think we had just dropped of, or disappeared with out trace!!!

thanks all

Tracy

Becky · Post by **Becky** » Fri Apr 14, 2006 12:17 am

as long as all wells with your son tracy--many prayers here

Tamara(SO) · Post by **Tamara(SO)** » Fri Apr 14, 2006 11:18 am

Wow what an intro!! Welcome to the forum. I will be looking forward to reading your bio when it's up. I've read your wifes intro and I'm hoping to get to know her too. I hope you son is doing well, hugs to you all and see you on the boards when you come back

Tracy_Victoria · Post by **Tracy_Victoria** » Sat Apr 15, 2006 4:44 am

Thank you all again, Hopefully fran and I are now back on track, our son is now home, yet needs to rest, but it's so good to have him home!

Tamara(SO) wrote:Wow what an intro!! Welcome to the forum. I will be looking forward to reading your bio when it's up

Hi Tamara

Thank you, I have just posted it in the your beginings section!

I'm sure Fran will be about soon.

Tracy