"hi"
Posted: Sun Feb 17, 2008 2:23 am
"Hi", I'm new here so I'm not sure exactly what I should say so please bear with me.
Just to let you know a little about myself as I don't know where else to start, I'm in my forties and have been struggling with the body I was born with since I was about 8 or 9 or even before, but I'm not quite sure when I think back.
I suppose my story's not all that uncommon, I remember wearing my first dress when my sisters dressed me in a beautiful white communion frock when I was about six and although I was embarrassed, it wasn't for some time later I realised it was because I was put on show before my family rather than what I was wearing.
A few years later I began dressing in my sister's clothes, but it wasn't until my oldest sister got married did I really begin to understand what I was feeling. I was in her wedding as a junior groomsman but all I wanted to be was a bridesmaid and that night I cried myself to sleep knowing I could never be a bride.
From that point on I dressed as often as I could but never had the courage to tell anyone about my feelings. Eventually, I married a woman who I was able to accept my dressing as a bedroom game but when it started to become an ongoing thing she felt threatened and it all stopped.
Today we're still married, so I don't get a lot of opportunities to express myself, but I do when I can.
Thanks for listening.
love Ally.
P.S. the name Alison was what I would have been called had I been born a girl.
Just to let you know a little about myself as I don't know where else to start, I'm in my forties and have been struggling with the body I was born with since I was about 8 or 9 or even before, but I'm not quite sure when I think back.
I suppose my story's not all that uncommon, I remember wearing my first dress when my sisters dressed me in a beautiful white communion frock when I was about six and although I was embarrassed, it wasn't for some time later I realised it was because I was put on show before my family rather than what I was wearing.
A few years later I began dressing in my sister's clothes, but it wasn't until my oldest sister got married did I really begin to understand what I was feeling. I was in her wedding as a junior groomsman but all I wanted to be was a bridesmaid and that night I cried myself to sleep knowing I could never be a bride.
From that point on I dressed as often as I could but never had the courage to tell anyone about my feelings. Eventually, I married a woman who I was able to accept my dressing as a bedroom game but when it started to become an ongoing thing she felt threatened and it all stopped.
Today we're still married, so I don't get a lot of opportunities to express myself, but I do when I can.
Thanks for listening.
love Ally.
P.S. the name Alison was what I would have been called had I been born a girl.
. the support you need or want is here and sometimes you don't even have to ask.
I suggest you start buying them in your own name . . . the catalog companies/stores really don't care if it's a guy buying women's clothing because they'll presume it's just a gift for the wife or girlfriend. 
to the forum.