Valerie's beginning
Posted: Fri Aug 19, 2005 8:58 pm
Hi all! I registered about a week ago and have found that I am not alone in this big world in how I feel. So I will be sticking around a while, as I feel like I can relate to others pain and enjoyment.
My first thought is way back when I was about 4-5 years old ( 47 now ). I always had fun playing outside and never wanted to come in when nature called. Well,I guess my mom knew what I was up to, maybe the dirty spot in my underware, but one day while playing she called me in to the house. All I can remember about the time is she took me in and dressed me in a dress of my sisters. I had to stay that way for I don't remember how long. Was this the only time? I am not sure but that time sticks in my head. And the only ones I ever played with during those early years was my sister and our friend next door,who was a girl also. A few years after that, we had moved due to my dads job. About early teens I remember no one was home and I went looking through the clothes in my sisters closet and then looked into her dresser drawers. Can't remember trying any thing on,but thinking back I wish I did if I didn't
. She had some nice dresses and jumpers back then!
During high school I was interested in the normal guy things, cars and girls. No cross dressing during that time and no thoughts either. After school ended and I got a job, my girlfriend, for about 2 years running then, and I married. She always left for work before I and also I only worked about 5 minutes away. It was during this time that I began dressing more often. Sometimes in the morning or at lunch. As the years went on it wasn't till about 15 years ago ( we had been married 15 then ) she found out. I had panties on the night before and she asked me about it or was she dreaming. I admitted yes. I asked her about putting on a dress,she said whatever. I did but she didn't know what to say. It has caused many problems off and on. I have always tried to keep it hidden. This year I started looking for more info on the net and also bought, "Who's Really from Venus". All the info has opened my mind to all that has happened in the past,opening what I always thought had happened. It also gave me some info on why I maybe this way. I had a talk with my wife a few weeks ago and it didn't turn out the way I wanted. She has since said we will work out what ever comes up and all will be fine. I hope so. I would like some outfits of my own and to just be able to let myself be me,not hiding anymore from her. I am more happier when I don't worry so much,hiding how I want to be.
I am not as femine as some of you here. It is just the clothes that I feel comfortable in. I have also noticed at time I stand or hold my hands up while passing thru the shop like a female. Maybe Valerie just wants to be herself. I also see that we are all different and have these traits in different levels. That is why we are all different, but are still the same.
Hope I haven't rambled on to much. And I hope you enjoyed my life story. Thanks for being here,
.
My first thought is way back when I was about 4-5 years old ( 47 now ). I always had fun playing outside and never wanted to come in when nature called. Well,I guess my mom knew what I was up to, maybe the dirty spot in my underware, but one day while playing she called me in to the house. All I can remember about the time is she took me in and dressed me in a dress of my sisters. I had to stay that way for I don't remember how long. Was this the only time? I am not sure but that time sticks in my head. And the only ones I ever played with during those early years was my sister and our friend next door,who was a girl also. A few years after that, we had moved due to my dads job. About early teens I remember no one was home and I went looking through the clothes in my sisters closet and then looked into her dresser drawers. Can't remember trying any thing on,but thinking back I wish I did if I didn't
. She had some nice dresses and jumpers back then!During high school I was interested in the normal guy things, cars and girls. No cross dressing during that time and no thoughts either. After school ended and I got a job, my girlfriend, for about 2 years running then, and I married. She always left for work before I and also I only worked about 5 minutes away. It was during this time that I began dressing more often. Sometimes in the morning or at lunch. As the years went on it wasn't till about 15 years ago ( we had been married 15 then ) she found out. I had panties on the night before and she asked me about it or was she dreaming. I admitted yes. I asked her about putting on a dress,she said whatever. I did but she didn't know what to say. It has caused many problems off and on. I have always tried to keep it hidden. This year I started looking for more info on the net and also bought, "Who's Really from Venus". All the info has opened my mind to all that has happened in the past,opening what I always thought had happened. It also gave me some info on why I maybe this way. I had a talk with my wife a few weeks ago and it didn't turn out the way I wanted. She has since said we will work out what ever comes up and all will be fine. I hope so. I would like some outfits of my own and to just be able to let myself be me,not hiding anymore from her. I am more happier when I don't worry so much,hiding how I want to be.
I am not as femine as some of you here. It is just the clothes that I feel comfortable in. I have also noticed at time I stand or hold my hands up while passing thru the shop like a female. Maybe Valerie just wants to be herself. I also see that we are all different and have these traits in different levels. That is why we are all different, but are still the same.
Hope I haven't rambled on to much. And I hope you enjoyed my life story. Thanks for being here,
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Some if the things in the story can also be applied to me, I guess. What you said about Valerie wanting to be herself, I often thought the same thing: Steffie wants to be herself! Finally from my limited experience (I'm a late bloomer in my 40's), I see that all CD's are alike in the respect of passion for dressing but all do it in different ways which makes us unique (yet still alike). Everyone is a unique girl from whom we can always learn new things (about dressing and ourselves). I hope you enjoy our forum! 
Its a blessing celebrate girl 
