Samantha, thank you again for your kind words. :
First, I just had to buy myself another wig, basically the same style of the newest, dirty blonde style and of my earlier brunette with auburn hi-lights style I have photos here of me wearing. Too my eyes and mind I have just lucked out in finding a style of wig that works for my face and my tastes as a cder 'girl'. So had to add another one of the same style but it's a light auburn with blonde hi-lights wig. I am so excited for it to arrive.
As I noted earlier for a cd'er finding a wig (if you can't grow your own hair out) that IS YOU! and so makes you feel feminine, pretty and so girly is one of the biggest hi-lights to being a crossdresser.
I guess in all my years, including many of confusion, anger and even hate for myself, learning to really embrace myself and becoming as feminine as I can feel when crossdressing is the best and healthiest way for me to deal with it.
Samantha and others who stop to read my words and thoughts, for me I have a growing confidence in myself as an inner confidence, but am still very timid about expressing Lacey and my femme cding side to the outside world. I am trying to take my inner confidence and bring it forward but it will be baby steps for me.
Building my feminine wardrobe and learning to really advance my makeup skills in recent months all n all with the lil narcissist

Lacey has to the camera, has me taking so many photographs of her with my learned makeup techniques and new clothes and wigs. I just study them to try to instill my feelings about the desire to move my cding to being more out and about. We shall see when and where it goes.
Social upbringing and personal hang ups are powerful personal forces for a person to fight through. My sound and logical mind says one thing, my fears say another. Ahhhumm!!
If I may plug a Youtuber, cd'er who blows my mind on her dressing videos, Heidi Phox. I have viewed many of her videos and love her way and style. I only wish she would not be afraid to talk in her cute and very feminine videos. I'd love to hear her words and thoughts as she posts video of her dressed.
