Out Out Out?
Posted: Tue Jun 29, 2010 12:16 pm
I hadn't dressed for 3 n 1/2 weeks due to lack of privacy round the house, the urge to dress was becoming very overpowering and really gettin me down again.
So it was around 4am here and I decided to pluck my brows, shave my legs and paint my nails with the intention of dressing all day as I knew my dad was off to work at about 8am. After he went I did my makeup, put on a black pencil skirt, black tights,knickers,a magenta coloured low cut top which I love, wig, and the all important heels!
I felt so good again, so good infact that out of the blue and kinda unplanned I grabbed my short leather jacket and got my key and just went out the door and preceded to walk up the drive way, was around 8:45am and its was broad daylight it wasnt until I got a few door away that I fully realised what I was doing (nope I wasnt drunk lol) my heart was beating so fast, talk about pleasure and pain at the same time, it was so thrilling yet scary, I walked round my block - about a 5min walk, went past 1 postman, and someone washing there car.
This was a very addictive experience and yet I would not have done the same walk en drab due to my other issues (strange how the mind works), probably just the adrenaline and such puttin my body into overdrive. This was the happiest iv been in ages and im so glad I just did it. I hope to do it again soon, maybe this will help my aggrophobia
So it was around 4am here and I decided to pluck my brows, shave my legs and paint my nails with the intention of dressing all day as I knew my dad was off to work at about 8am. After he went I did my makeup, put on a black pencil skirt, black tights,knickers,a magenta coloured low cut top which I love, wig, and the all important heels!
I felt so good again, so good infact that out of the blue and kinda unplanned I grabbed my short leather jacket and got my key and just went out the door and preceded to walk up the drive way, was around 8:45am and its was broad daylight it wasnt until I got a few door away that I fully realised what I was doing (nope I wasnt drunk lol) my heart was beating so fast, talk about pleasure and pain at the same time, it was so thrilling yet scary, I walked round my block - about a 5min walk, went past 1 postman, and someone washing there car.
This was a very addictive experience and yet I would not have done the same walk en drab due to my other issues (strange how the mind works), probably just the adrenaline and such puttin my body into overdrive. This was the happiest iv been in ages and im so glad I just did it. I hope to do it again soon, maybe this will help my aggrophobia