So happy I cannot contain myself.

[Anne Bonny]

When I am feeling that way and am fully enfemm I am just so happy I can hardly contain myself inside...Is this a honeymoon experience? I don't know but I am perfectly free to dress, there are many women who know and who are so supportive of me. I have a difficult time the joy is overflowing so much inside I am not able to experience it all. Is there too much of a good thing to be enraptured in ecstasy?? Everything is right...as if I cant bear feeling so good about who I am...I think of Paul Simon's Something So Right.... Here I am at night now fully dressed, and able to be now If I desire to be. Wow. I think I may O.D. on Joy... surely I will calm down at some point??? It is just so wonderful to be able to simply be who I am...it does come and go...I am gender fluid...I do not feel this way when I am dressed masculine and feel masculine.... Gee this high is perfectly legal perfectly harmless and is probably very good for me to be filled with happiness and overflowing Joy!!!!! Wow! from simply just being able to be Anne, to be this way...to be able to be my feminine self openly and with acceptance. Surely eventually I will settle in to just a wonderful inner glow...I am so happy I cannot contain myself. I would say I can't stand feeling so full of happiness...to feel so close to the women I see and have around me...I love them...I could almost cry...to be in this space this state of being...nirvana I suppose. Whew what a good place to be....wow...... it is to be so full of joy and happiness that it hurts! Gaw! I am perfectly sober...I am not on any drug...this is just a natural high. Incredible.

Sounds crazy I know...but...I do not think This is a unique experience.

[Paulette]

So happy for your happy!

[Michelle Diane]

Hello Anne, I'm truly so happy for you. I know the feeling after coming out recently knowing my wife supports me and I can be the real me whenever the desire takes me. Enjoy yourself, you deserve it.

Love,
Michelle

[Anne Bonny]

Thank you. Enhomme this morning....just how I move around inside and this is ok too. Yeah...it is good to be free and open to shop for the clothes and shoes I like they are not fetish wear but clothes I wear when I am in my feminine self. So glad I spent the money to purchase after so many years a quality set of breast forms in the correct size...they have the weight and the shape and if touched they sink in then return to the correct shape when you let up...Yeah I was telling a friend as we were talking about our breasts that I wish I could have implants but will settle for having my ears pierced, and enjoying my long hair which looks prettier in a feminine style. I have been complemented on my make up skill and told it looks better than what many women do. To actually have a very real wardrobe of clothes and jewelry and shoes...and to be able to shift over and just be that part of myself when the name Anne would apply as my real name.

The inner mental shift in my gender moves into closer alignment with that of the women around me. I am so lucky to be able to be open and to receive support for who I am when I am feeling like a girl inside from the women around me who know and who come and go.

What more could we possibly want as people who's gender differs from that of most men and which is at times very close to that of women...I do not know, but it is a dream I have always had and it is now true that it is really no longer a dream but it is a new reality for myself to enjoy.

I am free to move back and forth and just be who I am and have people who are there for me, who support me and care and who do not mind. What a very special gift to greet a woman fully enfemm as she comes in and we simply greet each other and just talk as we always do and later I changed to run and was enhomme to go out with no change...seamless transitions that are not really acknowledged at all and why should they be...It is all just who I am inside...I do not change all that changes is how I am feeling inside and how I look. Dream achieved.

The best part is from here I can grow even more, basically I am here but should I wish I do still have more work and growth to achieve...why could we not go out to a restaurant, or to the beach, or anywhere however I am feeling inside and may dress. Further perhaps I can find a new woman when the time comes so that I can live the rest of my life finally having achieved the ability to openly be all of who I am inside with full acceptance, support and love.

Nirvana....yep I cannot do better than that in this life...I will be able to pass someday in happiness I achieved and was able finally to lead a full and happy life and that is all that I ever asked for myself.