Went out...conversation with a gf

[Anne Bonny]

me: Dyed oh..
It's too dark. Ha
Pat's family has gone home time to relax.
Anyway it's nice to be able to just go with this...but I sure wish I were free to do so no matter who or
what because I would like that freedom. Oh well.
I mean...why hide my jewelry box? I can hear myself saying...ok...I'm probably somebody you don't want to be around but I am a normal person, yeah, how I look to you may be out of bounds but what I look like is my business and has nothing to do with who I am as a person. When I dress to satisfy the expectations of others, as a male, I am fully accepted with no problems but dress to please the way that I feel sometimes and suddenly I am rejected when it's only how I look that has changed!? And that is all that it is! Yeah I feel differently a lot and what I want and desire shifts a bit but why am I rejected because what I look like and desire inside at times matches closely with what women want? Women change how they look, and they also at times have similar desires close those of men. 
Hey!  this one came out better! (picture)...
*Yes
*Very nice pic
me: Yeah...not bad
Thanks
*I like the color
Hair
me: Oh...hahahaha...
*The last pic is great
me: I am glad I have enough to do this styling.
*Your makeup everything. 100% woman
*It's a very flattering angle. Great photo
me: Yep, I love it when I can feel good about how I look
Thanks
*You're welcome
Me: Grabbed my purse and went out for a drive...went to the beach, parked, walked to the water and
walked about a hundred feet...got sand in my sandals...anyway...back now. It is late so...but lots of
traffic, no one in sight on the beach..
Pretty safe.
I drove all around... down I xxx to the casinos past the marina then back through town.
Past the casinos to the beach...
Ready for bed...
Oh no...ok I thought...well sleepwear.
*I just finished reading
*I bet it was nice to get out
me: Whatcha a reading?
*Reading your messages
me: Oh
*Yeah
me: How brave...in the darkness
*The thumbs up was for the picture
me: Yeah
*It's brave
*Going out of your comfort zone
me: Brazen ha
I was ok
I have been out before
*Im sure if anyone saw you they'd just think you are as you present yourself.
me: Been wanting to...looked ok so I  thought why not now? 30 min.
*Yeah
*It's fun to get out when you feel good about yourself. Almost an adrenaline rush.
me: Well 5'9...shoulders but at night...
No I wasn't afraid
Not a thrill...it just felt nice to be who I am.
*Even better
*But I meant like a rush of confidence.
me: Really just having the freedom to be who I  am
A thrill in a sense kind of like high 5
Look at me! This is ok!
Yea!
*This is good
me: I am sure if someone came...well..trepidation but I would have just moved to the car.
I want this to be ok
Wish it were but it would take a "So what!?" attitude.
And who knows maybe I would pass with some?
*It is ok. And you would probably pass with many. I have seen other lgbtq in the area. We actually were passing through and went to a park that happened to have a pride celebration going on. There were some trans people there that brought their children and/or other relatives to the park to play. I think the area is pretty open to lgbtq from my experience. If you don't pass with some, I honestly wouldn't worry about it.