Thoughts on Pride Day

[Anne Bonny]

I think my life has been one of having everyone forcing and pressuring me to be who they have wanted me to be and they were not concerned in the least about how that has made me feel or with the effect it has had on me personally because they find who I am makes them feel uncomfortable. No wonder I am not happy and have lived a life of mental turmoil. I suppose it's more about my failure to stand up for myself and to demand my right to be who I am free of persecution and rejection. I cannot imagine doing this to anyone for life it is abuse beyond anything I can imagine. No you be this person! Or get lost! It's a horrible outrage practiced on thousands in our community. I suppose that is what Stonewall was about...those were gay and lesbian rights because of their sexual orientation...fortunately gender has been recognized because the persecution is the same.



I am not into demonstrating...Pride Day!?

Suppose it works for some. I suppose conservatives do not see their selves as victims. Rather we believe it is up to the individual to take responsibility to improve their own lives. It is up to me to act on an individual level. Micro activism on my own behalf that will hopefully effect change on those I interact with as I improve my own life it may lead to a change in how others see us and in how they see and treat others like us leading to a change in society in a more peaceful way.



Balance is my not desiring to confront the rejection and the hatred and persecution. I am fearful and so I present who they think that I am. It takes real fortitude to be who you really are...like a conservative at an antifa rally. It is the cowards way out but it is choosing to let your persecutors have their way. And to continue believing that they are right. That balance means I am being a coward. 



Bravery would badly damage my already emotionally damaged life ...  Does consideration allow those who are practicing intolerance, persecution and rejection to continue on destroying others for their own comfort? By giving in to their bigotry am I complicit in it's continuation? The benefit personally is lying so that people I love will still be there...family and friends...but what kind of love or friendship is it that would reject you unless you cease to be who you are and pretend to be who they want you to be? That is very objective...it is a choice...is it cowardice? Or is it brave consideration and tolerance? It takes strength to endure rejection for only partial acceptance and love. It is a very difficult question to entertain because it means you are choosing not to give those who you love a chance to show you who they really are inside do they truly love you or are they willing to reject you... because their understanding is not there or because they are not willing to accept you if this is who you are in their mind leading to a break that may last a lifetime or until they see that you are who you have always been. And sometimes not even then ...meaning they reject you as a son or as a daughter for whatever reason because they refuse to accept who you are ever to be acceptable or true, even if you were born this way and have always been who you are inside. 

[Bernice]

This post brought smiles, because you verbalized what I wanted you to realize and embrace, when I posted just moment ago on another thread.

You have got this figured out! You are on the right path! You are going to be just fine!

Hugs,

Bernice