Thank you so much girls! I think your right, and I think it does bring us closer together.
Let me start but saying, what a day, that is all I can say. I rang me sister last night but she was very tired and so I couldn't go round last night so I said I'll go round this morning. So after a sleepless night I did, I then went to tell her but again like with my Mum I just couldn't get the words out.
I just kept saying over and over, right I’m not gay but since about the age of 5...that was that for about 10mins lol I kept asking her if she knew what I was gonna say and she said no.
I then said is there anything I could do which would make you hate me and never speak to me, she said no but I still couldn't tell her. In the end she said, oh shell I tell you what I think it is. I said yes and then she went do you...and then she couldn't say it lol So I said see it's hard isn't it, she said yeah, but finally she went do you wear girls clothes.
I said yeah and she said well why would you think that would bother me. I said I just don't want to lose you, and I nearly started crying again lol but she then said, well it doesn't matter it's not like your a murderer or anything
Then we just talked and I just told her I've been like it since about 5, and she said sod bottling that up
I never showed her any pictures as it didn't seem right this time, but my Sister did open up to me a lot this afternoon too! Saying how she says things in her head sometimes but when she comes to say it she can't etc So that was that, then she said you cant go back to work until you've talked this out with someone.
So she then came down the Dr's with me and then I said about I NEED to see the councealer again and the Dr said she will try her best to get me another appointment, but that it would help if I told her what the topic was. So I then nearly told the Dr but just couldn't after about 5mins of saying I'm not gay but and not being able to say I dress up, my sister nearly told her but she said, aww you gotta tell her really.
The Dr then said ok, I think you cant go back to work yet. So I now have 3 weeks off in which time I am hopfully going to see the same councealer, if not the Dr said she would get me onto another group to help me.
Also, I have been having bloody noses for the past 5 years or so, and runny noses so I told the Dr this and I have to go to the Drs tomorrow to have a Blood check and clod thing cos the Dr said it could be that I have the early signs of a blood clod of something.
Woww, It’s just been too much for me today. I need to lie down. I also told my Sister about this place and she might check it out but I didn't give her the URL yet
Sophie xx
And you probably feel that by sharing this that it may help you to have an even closer relationship with her. 
