Gender Dysphoria Test

[CJ]

And then there are some of us who think that just being is a gift!

CJ

[Beauty]

Hi Beauty:

I thought I might be offended by the categorization, but the more I thought about it, it felt liberating. I really like the fact that in my own psyche I can be both genders or either gender. It just feels very comfortable. I have a very strong male identification--for example I love war movies and written accounts and sports (I played college football for a short while and still enjoy watching the game on television). And yet, I also have this emerging female identity. It's more than just the wonderful feel of femininity (the sumptouous delight in putting on a cute dress). It's a real identity co-existing wth my male side. It feels very natural and rooted in me. It's kind of scary (will it take me over?). But the COGIATI implied I could be both: have my cake and eat it too. My condition can be seen as a gift rather than a curse. I'm beginning to see it that way--thank God.

Is that how you feel?

Hugs,

Laura

Hi Laura,

I did feel liberated when I first took the test. Then I got a little afraid, but then I felt ok again. It was an up and down thing.

I think you very eloquently worded the way you felt and I totally understand why you would feel this helped you. Sometimes I feel like I have a strong male identity, but then I hang out with guys and quickly go, "Oh.. I guess not." I am accepted as a guy and no one considers me soft or anything. I just ALWAYS get called "sensitive", especially by guys.

Football huh? COOL!!

I love football!!!

What position did you play? How long after the season did you start dressing? I'm just kind of curious. It's ok if you don't answer.

Beauty

[Laura]

Hi all,

I want to say first, that I really love this forum. There are some really wonderful people here whom I'd like to get to know. Second--to Alexandra--I didn't mean to offend you or anyone by implying that one kind of test score was superior to another. I don't think that at all. I was just offering my personal reaction, based partly on fear, to the test score I got. Actually, I'm pretty suspicious of these kind of tests.

I do agree that being transgendered is a gift--something I'm just beginning to appreciate after years of living in shame. I hope one day to get to the stage where I can really feel it as just one aspect of being human. That will take time. Now, that I've accepted this part of me, things are happening very fast.

To Beauty: I started crossdresing when I was in my early teens and dressed in secret right through college and immediately after. As a football player I played both ways, wide receiver and halfback on offense and linebacker on defense. I wasn't cut out for linebacker it turned out. I sustained a bad shoulder injury that still plagues me, and I "retired."

From a young age I fit in with guys pretty easily (partly because of my love of athletics), but I always hid this part of me out shame and fear. Growing up in the big city I quickly developed a hard edge that I could use whenever necessary to protect my inner life and hide the extent of my sensitivity. I was successful initially in hiding my loneliness and all the pain that went with it, but not for long. Eventually, after therapy I stopped dressing and was able to devote my energies to establishing a successful academic career. It was only very recently that I've gone back to crossdressing, not out of any compulsion,;q=0 out of the need to be happy and whole and to give expression to Laura. Now, for the first time in my life I can say that I know what it means to love myself. Before this, I loved only a part of myself and feared the other part. Now, perhaps my greatest challenge is to bring Laura's expressive qualities more into my guy life. I don't just mean clothes, but the qualities of spontaneity, personal kindness for others, laughter, joy, and tears; and the aesthetic qualities as well.

Wow, I talked longer than I planned. I'm interested in hearing more about you.

Hugs to all and much love,

Laura

[Beauty]

Hi Laura,

That was a great post.

I think the most important part about it was that you love yourself. That's so HUGE!! Congrats on that. Some people work their whole life and don't understand how to love themselves.

That's really cool that you played both ways on football. It takes a strong breed to play both offense and defense in high school.

I have to ask this.. sorry!!! So? Do you play Madden?

The Gender Test is a great test. I hope people continue to post their results! :nudge:

Beauty

[CJ]

Hi all,

Laura,

What a wonderful post! Very honest and revealing. Thanks. I think many will recognize their own path in your journey. I know I do.

Love,
CJ

[Alexandra]

Laura, no offense taken!

[Beauty]

Hi Alexandra,

Did you ever know that you're my hero?

Beauty

[Alexandra]

I am? oh, thank you very kindly.

[Celia]

The
COMBINED GENDER IDENTITY AND TRANSSEXUALITY INVENTORY
( COGIATI )

RESULTS


Your COGIATI result value is: 30 Which means that you fall within the following category:

COGIATI classification THREE, ANDROGYNE

I put off taking this test for the longest time, fearing it might classify me as a man (how dreary! :-s ) on the one hand or a transsexual ( ) on the other. I know that the test isn't to be taken too seriously, but its author certainly didn't intend it as a joke either. If my results had been as I'd feared, I probably would have felt somewhat distressed or bummed out. I'm relieved at, and pleased with, the score I did receive--androgyne strikes me as a balance I can live with, at least for the time being.

-Celia

[Beauty]

Hi Celia,

Thanks for conveying the thought that some folks may go through before they take this test.

I'd never thought about that before.

I'm glad you did take the test though, and I'm even happier that you like the results you got back!!!!

Celia (my breath of fresh air today)

Beauty

[Julie M.]

Hi there,

This is a test that I'd taken a few years ago. I took it again and got the same results . . . I think. I know I was a four last time too.

It's 65 question test, so don't think it's a quickie.

I'd be interested to see what your scores were though.

Here are my results.
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Your COGIATI result value is: 270 Which means that you fall within the following category:

COGIATI classification FOUR, PROBABLE TRANSSEXUAL

Beauty

Just took the test for the umpteenth time. I have ranged from 355 to 385. Today it was 375. I think some of the fluctuations are from the mood I'm in at the moment. I think once you hit 390 it puts you in the classic transsexual category.

The first time I took it I was really depressed because I always just thought of myself as a crossdresser. But after I really thought about it I realized I'm probably closer to the category I was placed in.

I won't ever transition because I have an obligation to family and friends and also because 50+ years of testosterone damage would make me a very unhappy TS. I have however delved into HRT and have to admit it was one of the happiest times of my life but again my familial obligations forced me to stop.

Julie Marie

[Laura]

Hi again,

I just took the COGIATI test again. At the end of January when I took it I got a –75 and was classified as an androgyne. Now, that I’ve accepted more of my feminine qualities and had more experiences as Laura, I’ve tested +140, just over the border into “probably transsexual.” I still feel pretty certain that I would not want to have hormone therapy and DEFINITELY not SRS, but the idea of living to some degree as a woman appeals to me. Hmmm. Another way of looking at it is that I am an androgyne in many ways, but tilting strongly toward the feminine.

Hugs,

Laura

[Lorna]

Cool test! I think I'm content with these results...

Your COGIATI result value is: -50 Which means that you fall within the following category:

COGIATI classification THREE, ANDROGYNE
What this means is that the Combined Gender Identity And Transsexuality Inventory has classified your internal gender identity to be essentially androgynous, both male and female at the same time, or possibly neither.

In some cultures in history, you would be considered to be a third sex, independent of the polarities of masculine or feminine. Your gender issues are intrinsic to your construction, and you will most likely find your happiness playing with expressing both genders as you feel like it.


SUGGESTIONS FOR ACTION:

Your situation is a little tricky in our current society, but not tremendously so, depending on your geographic location.

The suggestions for your circumstance are not overly complicated.

1. If you have any comfortability about your gender expression, some slight degree of counseling might well prove helpful. The primary goal would be to make it possible for you to enjoy your gender expressions free from any shame or embarrassment, and to resolve any remaining questions you might have.

2. As an androgynous being, both genders, and both sexes are natural to your expression. Permanent polarization in either direction might bring significant unhappiness. It is not recommended that you go through a complete transsexual transformation. You might find a partial transformation of value, if you find yourself more attracted overall to the feminine. You are more likely a transgenderist, than a transsexual. It is recommended that you recognize that your gender issues are real, but that extreme action regarding them should be viewed with great caution.

3. If you have not already, consider joining any of the thousands of groups devoted to gender play of various varieties. There is literally a world of friends to discover who share your interests. There are also publications, vacations, and activities that would expand your gender play.

[Jaye]

I took this test, from the other thread about gender identity, I and I was classified as "Classification Four: Probable Transsexual".

[Beauty]

Hi Jaye,

Cool!

If you're upset by the results though, don't worry because it's really not an official test. I too scored a probable TS. The last time I took it my score was higher than the first. lol.

Thanks for posting the results! I still love hearing the score results!!

Beauty