"hi"

Ally · Post by **Ally** » Sun Feb 17, 2008 2:23 am

"Hi", I'm new here so I'm not sure exactly what I should say so please bear with me.

Just to let you know a little about myself as I don't know where else to start, I'm in my forties and have been struggling with the body I was born with since I was about 8 or 9 or even before, but I'm not quite sure when I think back.

I suppose my story's not all that uncommon, I remember wearing my first dress when my sisters dressed me in a beautiful white communion frock when I was about six and although I was embarrassed, it wasn't for some time later I realised it was because I was put on show before my family rather than what I was wearing.

A few years later I began dressing in my sister's clothes, but it wasn't until my oldest sister got married did I really begin to understand what I was feeling. I was in her wedding as a junior groomsman but all I wanted to be was a bridesmaid and that night I cried myself to sleep knowing I could never be a bride.

From that point on I dressed as often as I could but never had the courage to tell anyone about my feelings. Eventually, I married a woman who I was able to accept my dressing as a bedroom game but when it started to become an ongoing thing she felt threatened and it all stopped.

Today we're still married, so I don't get a lot of opportunities to express myself, but I do when I can.

Thanks for listening.

love Ally.

P.S. the name Alison was what I would have been called had I been born a girl.

Mindy · Post by **Mindy** » Sun Feb 17, 2008 2:54 am

Welcome Ally,

I also have struggled with who I am. I have been CDing since I was a teen and it is now 40 years later. My SO does not know that I wear her clothes and thank goodness she is almost my size. I use her ID to buy my clothes in the catalogs and wait anxiously for there arrival. I wish I could tell my SO what I really do but find it hard to follow that path. I have really enjoyed this forum and hope you do as well.

XOX,

Mindy

Ally · Post by **Ally** » Sun Feb 17, 2008 3:54 am

Thanks Mindy, if everyone here is as nice as you sound, I'm sure I will enjoy it here. Hopefully we can be good friends.

love Ally.

Kay · Post by **Kay** » Sun Feb 17, 2008 4:48 am

Hi Ally
Welcome to this wonderful place

. the support you need or want is here and sometimes you don't even have to ask.
Kay

Ally · Post by **Ally** » Sun Feb 17, 2008 5:37 am

Hi Kay and thanks for the support, and you're right, I didn't have to ask. I think all I really want is just some friends that accept me for who I am and who can listen but also know what it's like. I don't know how to say it, but I've felt so alone for so long I feel a little lost sometimes.

What I think I'm trying to say is just thanks.

love Ally

Carol Ann · Post by **Carol Ann** » Sun Feb 17, 2008 8:33 am

Hi Ally,
Hay girl you are more then welcome here, you are amount friends who love you so feel free to say or express yourself any way you like. Now keep it PG

SilverLady(SO) · Post by **SilverLady(SO)** » Sun Feb 17, 2008 11:22 am

Hi, Ally, and welcome to the Forum!

Mindy - First, you know that you shouldn't be wearing your SO's clothes without her permission, it's just not right. Secondly, using her ID without her knowledge to buy your clothes is technically identity theft.

I suggest you start buying them in your own name . . . the catalog companies/stores really don't care if it's a guy buying women's clothing because they'll presume it's just a gift for the wife or girlfriend.

- SL

Post by **DonnaT** » Sun Feb 17, 2008 12:37 pm

Hi Ally,

to the forum.

Ally · Post by **Ally** » Sun Feb 17, 2008 4:21 pm

Hi Carol Ann, Silverlady and Donna, thanks for the friendly welcome, and I'll try to remember what you said Carol, thanks again.

love Ally